Uni .... Holidays .... Partying

Omg, so many 18ths recently o.0 but anyway.

Uni:
The last of my exams are being completed/handed in now. After the one due tomorrow, there is basically only a lab and two online mini tests left for me to do before exams. This gives me ages to study for chem seeing as that is the only unit i have an exam for. So after exams, i plan on going party planning mad like last summer, but to a lesser extent.

*Will find pic when i get home*

Holidays:

I am also interested in doing things like going to Esperance with Dylana for a week.
I was planning on going last year in January with her and the two Sam's to meet up with Georgie (who lives there) but i couldn't get time off work from the truck company. This time it will most likely be just Dylana and I meeting Georgie down there. I haven't seen her since The beginning-ish of winter and it shall be awesome. I've also been asked to go camping with Venus and some of her friends, however i feel as if i should go with Dylana, as not only has this been discussed since winter last year (like 18 months of 'yeah, i'll go' and excitement) and I've only really just started thinking about the one with Venus. The trip to Esperance will either be straight after exams, or straight after Christmas, most likely the former.

Country anyone?

Partying:
There are 3 parties i want to have this summer.
1. - An end of Exams Tea Party:
May sound lame, but shall be awesome, i have a tea strainer now, so we can even use/make the proper stuff. This will most likely be a small group of school friends, and a whole bunch of tea, giggles and Spongebob.

2. - A Party for the hell of it:
Seeing as the middle of summer is usually quite hot, i think a pool party will sound good. Although there will be a no drinking before swimming rule, it should still be awesome. I'll most likely just invite whoever wants to come, up to a certain number.

3. - A Barbeque, also for the hell of it, although maybe around Australia Day:
Well, do i really need to explain, BBQ + Pool + Booze + Awesome Friends = YAY!

*Will find pic when i get home.*

Not a first time, but a hard time

A best/close friend, well someone who was my friend who i still care for, and out of love i'd still do anything for (the kind of love that is non-sexual) is now basically officially lost to continuing friendship.

No longer can i put up with this shit, not only now has he cancelled on me every single time we've organised to hang out or catch up (even on my birthday, which was a pretty heavy blow) he is now leaving the city (permanently) and didn't tell me at all, not a mention in the last year, he even told me ages ago that he wouldn't be.

Thank you facebook for pointing out to me that i am completely not valued by him and that any/everything i have done for him, to support him etc in the past meant nothing.

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All i can say about this work placement after the first day is:

1 - urgh... screw this, lets do engineering

and

2 - I am now officially a bad person for having to try not to laugh at some of the things that happen.

On another note that is equally as 'mehh'-ified.... I'm getting cranky about my weight again, I actually don't feel good when i'm this heavy, it is both a physical and emotional dislike to it. >.>
I was fine with it until a few weeks ago, although i do remember at one point saying i was fine as long as i didn't go up again. Well that points out the obvious as to why i'm no longer fine with it. And i know i need to do something. I didn't run today bacause i was so tired after today that, i'm going to go to bed at 9:50-ish... and i also didn't go running as i doubt my legs would have carried me too far without me falling asleep. Despite saying this, i plan on being fit enough to do the 2011 12km city to surf, whether i do it or not. I know myself that after a month of going a few times a week i can get to 8km, but then after that it lessens with how quickly it goes up, So i think it's a do-able goal, and if i can do more, that is good also.

That's all from me, cbf is the reason why no pics, will ttyl!

A Question Worth Answering.

I was asked a question anonymously on fabulis at some point that i only just came across.

The Question: When you encounter a sad moment, what do you do?

The Answer:
Never to give up trying to keep mentally strong. In saying this there are many ways you can go about doing it.
- Continuing on with life (as life goes on) without ignoring the issues.
- Discuss things with people who can help. Sharing a problem can lift a massive weight off your shoulders. If you don't know whether someone can help or not, but they are willing to listen, they have already helped
(In my experience, just knowing you have people who are willing to listen to you, to take time and take in what you're dealing with the intention of helping means the world)
- If you need help further then discussion, don't be afraid to get it. Find out where/who you can get it from and give it your best shot.
- Remain empathetic, understanding, open and cooperative with others. It gives (in my experience) you a great feeling knowing you can be there for someone else, and it can make you feel like you're worth far more then you might have once thought. Helping another when they need it can be one of the greatest experiences. If you don't find this same feeling from it, at least take refuge in the fact you now most likely have a bond with the person you have helped, and you can now mutually support each other.
- If you have emotions to express, let them flow! Expression is one of the greatest strengths humans posses. Bottling it up, although easy at the time makes it harder in the long run. Release your emotions, don't hide them, deal with them, accept them.

I find all these actions help to keep your head on your shoulders, your feet on the ground, and your mentality at a more manageable level. (note that them being at a more manageable level doesn't mean everything is better.

Depending on how bad the 'sad moment' (this next bit shouldn't be interpreted the wrong way):

I find by remembering and thinking about all the people who mean so much to me, and by knowing how much loss, anguish, anger, sadness and despair I'd feel in the event of losing them.
Through doing this I know that there is no way i'd want them to experience that because of me. I cannot bear the thought of putting someone through that, even if they're someone I dislike, I do not wish that pain upon anyone. This I find helps come to terms with the situation, as in the end, there is no easy way out of some things, and your own actions inevitably effect everyone around you. This method in my experience/s has kept my actions from going where my mind may have been leading previously.

Personally, although i may complain bitch and whine sometimes, I am happy for everyday that passes by as i get to spend it with a myriad of amazing people, brilliant places, and other brilliant beings. As a result, i have never once regretted using this method or any method to help deal with things.

So i guess this answers the question in a manner far too long for the fabulis site, I've posted it up on here as it is something i believe is important and very interesting.

The 3 Guys (there used to be a fourth)

One is confirmed to be gay, and the other two are potentially, although unlikely gay.

1. - Basically, there is still the Arran guy i mentioned before. I haven't talked to him in quite awhile, and we probably won't bother catching up until after soccer season has finished for him, if at all. Although i would have liked to catch up with him as i got along well with him on-line. A bit of his background (to what i know) is he's 21, working at ANZ, is a avid soccer player and apparently wanted to do the current uni course i am doing as. (Well one of them, the physics and nanotechnology side.)

2. - The guy from Willetton, Joe, i had/still have a crush on, who i bumped into on the bus with Jess the other day (I'm not the type to get all nervous). He is at Curtin uni, works in a bar, and apparently frequents Connections after work. He didn't say he was gay, but he did seem interested in the part of our discussion about the Queer Room, and he didn't seem like he had any issues with homosexuality. He also mentioned about turning some guys down, but the way he said it made it seem like it could be interpreted as him covering that he's gay to some high-school friends/acquaintances or that he's straight (the more likely of the two). That night we went to add him on facebook, and to my suprise it said "Interested in: Men". I thought that it could just be him pulling the piss out of something (like an inside joke) or maybe it could be truthful. Wishful thinking ensued here and i hope he is gay. He is attractive in both face and body (he is actually super fit) and he has a great personality. The only problem is the smoking, which from what i can tell isn't a constant as i couldn't smell it on him last week... at all. Meaning that it'd be manageable. If you couldn't tell i really like this guy, i hope he is gay so much! :D I haven't written all of what i was going to about this guy but i got distracted and lost my place.....

3. - Stuart, the guy from Collie in my EDU101 workshop is the last but not least of the three. I get along great with this guy (once things gets going) and we joke a lot, usually taking the piss out of the subject... He's about my height, making him the tallest of the three (which is a plus) with a relatively normal body and a GREAT arse. I have more contact with this guy then the other two, but i still cannot tell whether he is gay or straight, so wishful thinking again comes in.

Breakdown numerically (I know this is shallow/conceited, but it is fun/interesting to me to quantify it, not that I'd go by this in reality.) :

And now for some Pictures:

Billy Slater, who I'm assuming has/is washing his car in his rugby shorts..... Billy, I Approve!

Random hot beach guy from random blog i don't remember:

They run, they swim, they're stuff bounces, and they only cover it with a small triangle... why isn't there more? Gotta love Aussiebum gear:

I lol at the possibility this guy has a boner!:

Well, tying the pictures back to the theme of 3 guys...... How about 3 Rugby players at the pool?:

No link for today :D

P.S: There used to be a fourth guy, i mentioned him before, he was named Sharn and lives in a suburb close by. I've not really talked to him since, i'm probably not quite 'hip and with it yo!' for him....

Time To Fire Up The Blog Again

Long time no post, been kinda messy in my head space for awhile, then forgot about the blog, until now, when i am extremely bored..... a lot.
If i remember correctly, since i did the last post quite a bit has happened.

- I've been away to Exmouth

- I got my uni results

- On the guy front there has been some weird things going on

- Arran (the guy who asked me out) said he'd still like to date me yet i can't get in touch with him

- A guy i was in contact with ages ago in the next suburb over has found me again, last time i checked he wasn't out, which could be a minor problem for my moral view of the situation. Although time has passed, he may have come out now. Hopefully he has, i think he's cute in an adorable way

- There never ceases to be an amount of guys contacting me from outside my age range on site like the gyc, even if its not out by much, being 17, i could not see myself with anyone over 23, or under 17 for that matter.

- I have befriended one of the 16yo's that i was talking to, now he comes to me more for advice and chatting then as a potential partner.

There is more going on, so i'll post this for now, and re-edit it in the morning.

Sorry

I haven't been posting much lately, i have been busy socially, academically and disorganised emotionally.

There is too much going on to post about. I cannot sort my thoughts out enough to post anything substantial either.

One thing i suppose i can post is that i got asked out on a date by a guy named Arran. His parents must have been pirates "Arr!" .... lol yet again i only make me laugh. X)
I'm excited about it, i said yes, so now we are organising our date.