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All i can say about this work placement after the first day is:

1 - urgh... screw this, lets do engineering

and

2 - I am now officially a bad person for having to try not to laugh at some of the things that happen.

On another note that is equally as 'mehh'-ified.... I'm getting cranky about my weight again, I actually don't feel good when i'm this heavy, it is both a physical and emotional dislike to it. >.>
I was fine with it until a few weeks ago, although i do remember at one point saying i was fine as long as i didn't go up again. Well that points out the obvious as to why i'm no longer fine with it. And i know i need to do something. I didn't run today bacause i was so tired after today that, i'm going to go to bed at 9:50-ish... and i also didn't go running as i doubt my legs would have carried me too far without me falling asleep. Despite saying this, i plan on being fit enough to do the 2011 12km city to surf, whether i do it or not. I know myself that after a month of going a few times a week i can get to 8km, but then after that it lessens with how quickly it goes up, So i think it's a do-able goal, and if i can do more, that is good also.

That's all from me, cbf is the reason why no pics, will ttyl!

A Question Worth Answering.

I was asked a question anonymously on fabulis at some point that i only just came across.

The Question: When you encounter a sad moment, what do you do?

The Answer:
Never to give up trying to keep mentally strong. In saying this there are many ways you can go about doing it.
- Continuing on with life (as life goes on) without ignoring the issues.
- Discuss things with people who can help. Sharing a problem can lift a massive weight off your shoulders. If you don't know whether someone can help or not, but they are willing to listen, they have already helped
(In my experience, just knowing you have people who are willing to listen to you, to take time and take in what you're dealing with the intention of helping means the world)
- If you need help further then discussion, don't be afraid to get it. Find out where/who you can get it from and give it your best shot.
- Remain empathetic, understanding, open and cooperative with others. It gives (in my experience) you a great feeling knowing you can be there for someone else, and it can make you feel like you're worth far more then you might have once thought. Helping another when they need it can be one of the greatest experiences. If you don't find this same feeling from it, at least take refuge in the fact you now most likely have a bond with the person you have helped, and you can now mutually support each other.
- If you have emotions to express, let them flow! Expression is one of the greatest strengths humans posses. Bottling it up, although easy at the time makes it harder in the long run. Release your emotions, don't hide them, deal with them, accept them.

I find all these actions help to keep your head on your shoulders, your feet on the ground, and your mentality at a more manageable level. (note that them being at a more manageable level doesn't mean everything is better.

Depending on how bad the 'sad moment' (this next bit shouldn't be interpreted the wrong way):

I find by remembering and thinking about all the people who mean so much to me, and by knowing how much loss, anguish, anger, sadness and despair I'd feel in the event of losing them.
Through doing this I know that there is no way i'd want them to experience that because of me. I cannot bear the thought of putting someone through that, even if they're someone I dislike, I do not wish that pain upon anyone. This I find helps come to terms with the situation, as in the end, there is no easy way out of some things, and your own actions inevitably effect everyone around you. This method in my experience/s has kept my actions from going where my mind may have been leading previously.

Personally, although i may complain bitch and whine sometimes, I am happy for everyday that passes by as i get to spend it with a myriad of amazing people, brilliant places, and other brilliant beings. As a result, i have never once regretted using this method or any method to help deal with things.

So i guess this answers the question in a manner far too long for the fabulis site, I've posted it up on here as it is something i believe is important and very interesting.

The 3 Guys (there used to be a fourth)

One is confirmed to be gay, and the other two are potentially, although unlikely gay.

1. - Basically, there is still the Arran guy i mentioned before. I haven't talked to him in quite awhile, and we probably won't bother catching up until after soccer season has finished for him, if at all. Although i would have liked to catch up with him as i got along well with him on-line. A bit of his background (to what i know) is he's 21, working at ANZ, is a avid soccer player and apparently wanted to do the current uni course i am doing as. (Well one of them, the physics and nanotechnology side.)

2. - The guy from Willetton, Joe, i had/still have a crush on, who i bumped into on the bus with Jess the other day (I'm not the type to get all nervous). He is at Curtin uni, works in a bar, and apparently frequents Connections after work. He didn't say he was gay, but he did seem interested in the part of our discussion about the Queer Room, and he didn't seem like he had any issues with homosexuality. He also mentioned about turning some guys down, but the way he said it made it seem like it could be interpreted as him covering that he's gay to some high-school friends/acquaintances or that he's straight (the more likely of the two). That night we went to add him on facebook, and to my suprise it said "Interested in: Men". I thought that it could just be him pulling the piss out of something (like an inside joke) or maybe it could be truthful. Wishful thinking ensued here and i hope he is gay. He is attractive in both face and body (he is actually super fit) and he has a great personality. The only problem is the smoking, which from what i can tell isn't a constant as i couldn't smell it on him last week... at all. Meaning that it'd be manageable. If you couldn't tell i really like this guy, i hope he is gay so much! :D I haven't written all of what i was going to about this guy but i got distracted and lost my place.....

3. - Stuart, the guy from Collie in my EDU101 workshop is the last but not least of the three. I get along great with this guy (once things gets going) and we joke a lot, usually taking the piss out of the subject... He's about my height, making him the tallest of the three (which is a plus) with a relatively normal body and a GREAT arse. I have more contact with this guy then the other two, but i still cannot tell whether he is gay or straight, so wishful thinking again comes in.

Breakdown numerically (I know this is shallow/conceited, but it is fun/interesting to me to quantify it, not that I'd go by this in reality.) :

And now for some Pictures:

Billy Slater, who I'm assuming has/is washing his car in his rugby shorts..... Billy, I Approve!

Random hot beach guy from random blog i don't remember:

They run, they swim, they're stuff bounces, and they only cover it with a small triangle... why isn't there more? Gotta love Aussiebum gear:

I lol at the possibility this guy has a boner!:

Well, tying the pictures back to the theme of 3 guys...... How about 3 Rugby players at the pool?:

No link for today :D

P.S: There used to be a fourth guy, i mentioned him before, he was named Sharn and lives in a suburb close by. I've not really talked to him since, i'm probably not quite 'hip and with it yo!' for him....