*sigh*

Well, just recently I've been extremely self-conscious (again, i went for about 5 months where i felt great about myself) and i am getting sick of it. >.>
I've still been having a great time and everything, but somethings just not quite right. My confidence in me is faining, but i have been trying to rectify (lol.... rectum) it. Like i'm again starting on working down my weight (i looked on the scales recently, and i'm 1 kg off the heaviest I've ever been). I'm also looking for work, but 0/16 places I've applied at so far have contacted me back. :\

This seems to be a cycle, once i'm happy with myself i seem to stop putting in the effort and then get to just as bad as i was before. Except this time i plan on doing it in a way that will mean i have good habits set in stone for after. Like riding my bike, eating less (i figure if i get into the habit of not eating quite so much it should stick with me when i'm done.

In other news, the last week has been really exciting, the most exciting part of it would have to be my friend Michael's 20th birthday party. It was the mean girls one i referred to earlier. The costume turned out a success, and i was right about the wig, i wore it for ten minutes. It was a great night, i was up till 4 in the morning with a great group of people. I drank a lot, and was the only person to have a vom, but the only reason you vom when drunk is so you can fit more alcohol in your stomach. So it wall worked out. I also have to credit calling it 'having a vom' to a guy i met at the party, he was awesome. :)

Now to just get a start on my physics assignment and writing up my baking recipes. I was planning on making a compilation of ones that taste good, even if they don't look it. XD

No porn this time, just words.